work?

having been away from work for 5 weeks, and due to go to the Dr's on monday am really not sure about what I want to happen! Originally the Dr had said he was going to give me 4 weeks off, but I nearly hit the roof when he said that!

I have had another osteopath appointment on thursday which was a good session as I could move better after it, but yesterday my back was quite painful as I was walking. Today it seems better again! My cold has now changed to sinusitis, which is painful but can cope better with sinusitis than back pain!

My mood? well having discovered that my income and expenditure are far too close for comfort in that there is no spare money for anything, am struggling again. I was feeling bad about going back to work and wondering why I bother - all the work, and so little to show for it! Always struggling to pay the bills and no 'cushion' to fall back on when something goes wrong.

I know God is there and I will 'testify' to that fact - but I just don't know where God is in it all today.... most of the time it doesn't matter, but sometimes it does and today it does!