integration - instead of balance

on a retreat at the moment with my year cohort of ordinands and something the retreat 'leader'/'director'/'speaker' said resonated with me and am now thinking about. He said he was looking for the balance between activism and contemplation and the person he was speaking to had said that it was not about balance but integration.(my words)

I worry too much about balance I think as I am always looking for the balance in my life, and never seem to manage a well balanced life! Perhaps I try to compartmentalise everything in my life and therefore never do get the balance. A bit of a paradox really especially as I talk about my life being integrated, and that our course is an integrated one in the way we teach, and the way I reflect theologically is integrated!! mmmm, need to think about this a bit more methinks!!